Παρασκευή, 17 Ιουνίου 2011

Something is wrong with me. I know it. I just do.
I was never diagnosed but I struggle with eating issues this year.
I am not extremely skinny or extremely fat. I am not extremely sad neither extremely happy. I am not extremely short nor tall. I am not extremely behaving as an anorexic neither as a bulimic. I am not extremely beautiful or extremely ugly. I am not extremely smart or extremely stupid. I am just not extremely anything. I look so normal while inside I am just so fucked up. No one will ever believe I have a problem and no one will ever see it.
I thought I wanted the attention but I don't. I thought I was doing it for the attention but I am not seeking it anymore ,I don't even want it.
I have admitted to myself that no one will ever care and I am okay with it. So why don't I just stop the ED thing?
It's the only thing that makes me special and that hurts.

4 σχόλια:

  1. Just like me. And it hurts so much knowing that you are nothing special unless you hurt. :/

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  2. special γινεσαι οταν ξερεις πως δεν εισαι extremely πουθενα, αλλα εισαι extremely ο εαυτος σου!

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  3. ωραια το ειπες!
    και εγω τα εχω σκεφτει αυτα ,απλα εκεινη την στιγμη πολυ απλα δεν σκεφτομαι καθαρα..

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